In Matthew 28, the disciples have encountered Jesus after he has risen from the dead. He tells them, in verses 18 through 20, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”
It is so comforting to read this last line and know that Jesus is always here with us; he always has been here, and he always will be. It is so easy sometimes to feel disconnected from Jesus, but these verses assure us that he is with us no matter whether we know or understand that he is there.
I fight this sense of disconnection sometimes, especially when I am in situations that I find irritating or anxiety-provoking. It is so easy for me to lose my sense of connection with God and Christ and start acting out of self, especially when I get angry or over-stimulated in some other way.
When I interacted with Christ as the consciousness of the Sun while using a legal substance over a few years, I was literally surrounded by his Holy presence and allowed to feel a sense of love and peace that I had never experienced before. I felt as if he had pulled me into his being and connected my very soul with his radiant light. I have never felt such a sense of safety and an overwhelming tranquility; it felt as if I had finally found the place that I belonged in the universe, wrapped in his golden glow and filled with happiness and joy.
I want to feel this way as much as possible, and I know that I have to pray constantly, just Paul tells us to in his letters. I have to remember that strong negative emotions can cause me to feel a disconnect from Christ and to let them pass when they come instead of indulging them. When I pray for him to calm me I know that he is with me and he can smooth over the hurt and upset that life sometimes brings if I trust in him that he is there and the emotions will pass, and try to connect to his presence instead of the negativity of the present situation.
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