In Matthew 22, the Pharisees are trying to trap Jesus into giving what they think is a wrong answer, by asking him what is the most important of the laws of Moses. He answers, in verses 37 through 40, “You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself’. The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.”
Jesus makes clear in these verses that our relationship with God must come before anything else in our lives. It sounds like a simple concept, but for me this has been a long road; this is something I am hesitant to admit, but it is the truth.
When I experienced Christ as the consciousness of the Sun while using a legal substance over a few years, I reveled in the feeling of being in the presence of Christ; then I would come down and go about my life. I did not think that there was anything I would seriously have to change about myself, and I couldn’t have been more wrong. Furthermore, some things that I did try to change didn’t want to let me go, and I have had to repent and fight continually to let go of certain habits of thought and behavior and not take them back.
I lived as a secular adult for thirty years, and I was used to being in charge of my own life. I did what I wanted, when I wanted to do it, and there was a lot that I should have done that I wouldn’t do if I didn’t feel like it. When I accepted Christ into my heart and reaffirmed my Salvation through Christ, he came into my life in a dramatic way and showed me that certain things would have to change completely.
This is a process that is ongoing, and I resist more than I would like to admit. I have stumbled and faltered in my new relationship with God and Christ, and struggled with the process of making myself like a child who obeys my spiritual parents so they can guide me toward a greater experience of spiritual purity. I was living quite in opposition to that state, but didn’t know it.
Every day that passes gives me more awareness and more reflection about how my ego and self-will were at the center of my life, and my life was a disaster because of it. Putting God and Christ at the center of my life means obedience, first and foremost, something I am not the best at. I continue to pray for those traits that I lack and ask that the ones that are hindering me be removed, because I really do want to be pleasing in their site, and to love God with all my heart, like Christ commands, and live with both of them at the center of my existence.
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