In Psalm 51, verses one through four, David writes, “Have mercy on me, O God, because of your unfailing love. Because of your great compassion, blot out the stain of my sins. Wash me clean from my guilt. Purify me from my sin. For I recognize my rebellion; it haunts me day and night. Against you, and you alone, have I sinned; I have done what is evil in your sight. You will be proved right in what you say, and your judgement against me is just.”
I really like this Psalm, especially these verses, because David is so humble and honest about his transgressions. I think many people can relate to his frustration with having fallen short and his angst at having to fight his own nature in order to submit to God’s spiritual authority.
I feel this way a lot since coming back to Christ and God after interacting with them while using a legal substance. They have made many changes in my life since I recommitted my life to them, and I am sure many are to come.
I didn’t really think anything was wrong with me before, I just thought that I would wear a cross and go to church and that would be the extent of my renewal of faith, but boy was I wrong. I realize now that I was a pretty negative and jaded person in the past, and God and Christ want to change my whole nature.
I feel like this is the place David is writing from, where he is still being pulled off God’s path by his ‘rebellion’; the part of all of us that wants to orient our lives from the desires of self. When we accept the gift of Salvation from Jesus by accepting him into our hearts and repenting of our sin and asking forgiveness, he and God begin to work on us, changing our lives and directing our path so that we can grow in their likeness.
It is not an easy journey, and there are many parts of ourselves that we have to say goodbye too. Many times I find myself resisting letting go of certain things that I once thought were an essential part of my identity. But I know that as I surrender these aspects I get to become more like Jesus, the most intensely loving being I’ve ever been in the presence of, so that gives me the willingness to soldier on.
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